The Full Pursuit of Health

What’s one thing you can do for yourself today that will contribute to your overall well-being? I know for a lot of us that something is likely to be a thing for our mental health, maybe journal, keep a therapy appointment, listen to music, create art, watch a movie, reach out for support, focus on mindfulness activities, read, take our meds, etc. There are a ton of things to do for our mental health and they’re all so good and so necessary because they’re the beginning. They’re the start of a fully embodied experience of health. At least, that’s my hope.

I, however, have done things a bit backwards.Β  I focused on my body. I stubbornly persisted until I was physically healthy.


Once I was physically strong it struck me that I wasn’t doing what I needed to do in order to also be mentally strong, so I got into therapy. We all know how that turned out. I don’t say that to imply my therapy was all bad. On the contrary, I’ve made great progress, regardless of whether or not it could be attributed to the help of C or if it was more about being thrown out on my own.

I got worse at first, in therapy. I cut more. I became dependent and attached. That’s why the boundaries stuff hurt so bad. I was overly involved in the relationship and I wasn’t doing the work for myself. I do that. I find someone, hope they’ll rescue me and so I become helpless. But I get it now, I’m the only one who can save me. The way C went about reasserting necessary boundaries was absolutely painful and wrong, that doesn’t change. But I get why it had to happen. It forced me to make choices. It forced me to own the agency I have over my own life.

That’s what I’m doing now, for myself, with my financial health, my mental health, and my physical health. Being agential. I’ve done this crazy thing: became a consultant for Rodan and Fields. It’s this skincare company. I let a friend from high school talk me into taking the leap. We will see what it amounts to but if it amounts to something then it provides me with a little more financial certainty in a time of great uncertainty. I’m sure I’ll post more about this when I receive the products and am able to try them for myself. Yes, I leapt in blind faith.Β Trust me, however, whatever I discover about the products and whatever I say here will be honest and unfiltered.

Here’s what I’m thinking. This may not work out, may amount to nothing. Even if it doesn’t, I’m okay with that because it’s something I’m doing for myself. And because I have never had a skincare regimen. And I need something tangible right now.

I’ve also decided, as soon as it’s financially possible, I’m going to do the yoga teacher training. I want my life to be filled with the things I love. I want to give back through the things I love. I want my living and my life to be congruent. I’m tired of being tired. I want to be healthy in a fully realized sort of way.

14 Thoughts

  1. Rodan and Fields is a multi level marketing company. Google Rodan and Fields MLM for page after page of why this might be a bad idea. Also speaking as a skincare addict, there’s the small fact their ingredients are junky but that’s by the by cos plenty of people make money off stuff that’s junky πŸ˜‰ I hope this comment doesn’t come across as rude btw cos I am half asleep scrolling through WordPress but I can’t read that part and not comment, most times with MLM you lose money rather than make, the culture is horrible and they make it feel like your fault you’re not earning cos you aren’t working hard enough etc etc, which is probably the last thing you need. Google this one – obviously it’s your choice but please at least read what all these other people are saying and be aware.


    1. Information is always welcome. I know it’s a risk. And I might end up regretting it. Lol but wouldn’t be the first time. I take a position that nothing in life is permanent. If I screw up, there is always a solution. I just have to find it. Granted, this makes my life harder than it needs to be sometimes; however, I am annoyingly tenacious. So, either that tenacity will work in my favor in this pursuit or it will work in my favor as I pick up the pieces. But, I’m always glad to go into risks more informed.

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      1. Excellent attitude. Just be informed! πŸ¦„ ps love the stuff about keeping your physical health on point. I’ve been ill for 4 months and have come to realise how fucking hugely important it is…! Having my mental health in good shape is pretty shite when I can’t actually do anything πŸ€£πŸ‘¨β€πŸ‘§πŸ˜’


    2. So, I did do some more research and while it does seem relatively benign, in terms of this sort of marketing, I do think, perhaps, it isn’t the most financially responsible decision for me. I think I’d be better off putting the startup costs into my yoga teacher training.

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  2. I think it’s great you’re going to do the yoga thing. I’ve done things the opposite as you; working on the mental but can’t seem to get on board physical improvements. I love that I get to follow your path because it give me motivation to improve my own physical well-being. Thanks for always sharing so honestly with us!


  3. It’s funny how we humans sometimes tend to focus on only one area of health. For the past couple of years, my focus has been on my mental health. I just started getting into Yoga, and I’m loving it so far… Although I’m struggling even with the foundation poses. My wrists hurt, lol. But I’m feeling a lot more balanced than before. And I know Yoga is just as good for the mind, so it’s a win-win. πŸ™‚


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