Therapy Homework: “Love Letters” Technique

I am not going to lie, I was going to adamantly not do this weeks therapy homework. When Dr. W gave me the paper that says, "The purpose of this love letter is to express and resolve all the negative feelings that prevent you from experiencing and sharing the love you feel deep inside", I thought, "this [...]

Things depression and anxiety will tell you

Things depression and anxiety will tell you, if they're allowed... Depression will tell you that you are as invisible as you feel. Depression will tell you that you aren't good enough. Depression will tell you that no one would miss you if you were gone. Depression will tell you none of it is worth it. [...]

Listen to Truth

I have this corner on the old school blackboard in my classroom that has refrigerator magnets with words. The corner is simple. It says, "create." When the kids are bored they tend to go to the board and just randomly make poems or art with the words. The internet went down yesterday, so one student [...]

A Look into my 3rd Therapy Session

As you know by now, I started therapy with a new therapist (a clinical psychologist) recently. There isn't that intense draw to her that I felt with C but she does know how to ask the right questions and I do feel less like I am at risk of being judged by her, so these [...]

Mara: Marred by Delusions, Finding Inner Peace

Those of us who have been in therapy probably all know very well the phrases, "you must be able to sit with the emotions." Or, "there is only going through the emotions." Or some variation on the same theme. The idea that we have to stop avoiding our emotions, stop dissociating from them if there [...]

Cognitive Return to Easter

Today, I drove out to the lake to see where my father is living. The house is... lacking but sufficient. It's barely a step up from where we came from. But, it's temporary and it's by the lake. While I was there I was able to do some yoga by the lake which was nice. [...]

10 Reasons Why…

Okay, I'm about to brag on my "kids." I call them kids but really they are all 17 to 19 so in the eyes of our state, adults. However, in the eyes of me, their adoring teacher, they're still kids with sweet, loyal, loving hearts. So, without further adieu... 10 Reasons Why my Kids Make [...]

Poem: Scars

Trigger warning: Self harm This was written to be spoken word poetry put to music and such; maybe some day I'll do that but for now, here it is in its plain ole typed form. Scars   I am not my scars Or any of the things that have happened to me. I'm not the [...]

Uninhibited Emotional Vulnerability

I wrote this on this day 4 years ago: "I sometimes wonder if having moments of uninhibited emotional vulnerability (or just complete raw honesty) with/at/towards people is a mistake, if people don't know what to do with that kind of openness or just don't actually want that much honesty. If those are things best left [...]