A Love Letter to All My Jagged Edges

Today, the "day of love", I'm deciding to take back a little love for myself. I'm going to write a letter to all the parts of myself I've tried desperately to disavow. To all my jagged edges, My scars: you are cherished. You are the evidence that I have chosen to survive. You are outward [...]

Dehumanized: I Become My Mental Illness

The last place one would expect to be dehumanized and belittled because of Mental Illness is at a hospital. Or, at least that's what I would have thought. Apparently I was wrong. The medical community doesn't have compassion for people with mental health issues. They're clueless. And, they're causing more harm than they're doing good. [...]

The Power of the Gaze

Yesterday I went on another date. While she was lost in my eyes, I was lost in my head. My date, we will call her Sarah (not her real name), asked me a few moments before the aforementioned moment, "what happens in your head from the time we have deep meaningful conversations to the time [...]

How Healing Hurts

Okay, sorry, I couldn't pass up an opportunity for some quality alliteration. This post is, however, about how the process of healing is damn painful... and how that's completely normal. Yet, some things, some types of pain are probably not normal along the path. So, I am going to try to talk a little bit [...]

To my “almost” daughter: Anika

My dear sweet, Anika, today would have been your birthday. 11 years. 11 years of unconditional love, of kissed "owies", of discovering books and hobbies and mysteries together. 11 years of learning who you are and figuring out who you want to become. 11 years of play, of laughter, of joy, of sheer silliness. 11 [...]

On the right path

It would seem that the incidents of late have pushed me onto a slightly different life path than I intended for myself but perhaps that is the "right" path afterall. I'm currently taking a career counseling class as part of my Master's program. And one of the assignments (though it wasn't actually listed as an [...]

The Other Side of Silence

This one is for the women (and yes, men, too) who aren't ready to talk, who aren't ready to divulge the details of probably the worst days of their lives. It is for the people who bravely wake up, day after day, and carry on despite the weight of their secrets. This one is to [...]