I've got some really exciting news! I just started a new website. http://www.mettawellness.org I wanted .com but it was taken already. I really wanted metta though because it means loving kindness. And, I want this new coaching business to be run with loving kindness. There isn't much up on the site yet. And I haven't [...]
After my first year in the Clinical Mental Health Counseling graduate program at UT Tyler, I recieved this as my annual review results: I met expectations and exceeded expectations on every category. This year, the faculty decided that I did not meet expectations in almost all areas. These are the results I recieved today: If [...]
Recently, walk and talk therapy has become a thing. In the wake of K leaving (she and I have our last appt. June 20th), I've considered whether or not I want to stick with EMDR. And, I've considered things like walk and talk therapy because I love the idea of bringing the progress outdoors, where [...]
This post serves two purposes: I want to celebrate the incredible gifts I've received in therapy but I also want to explore my story, the shit I don't want to say. I've been down lately, in one of the valleys of my recovery. I've built this incredible foundation in my team of mental health professionals [...]
I don't usually write poetry but here is one: The days that hurt the most are... The days when I find myself overindulged in emotion. Stuffed to the brim, crammed full, overflowing, bursting at the seams. In pain. Coming apart and undone. These are the days when having senses feels like a chore. The days [...]
Do you believe in ghosts? Yes, I mean the kind that go bump in the night. The specters caught between real and not real, past and present, energy diverted. I just watched Haunting of Hill House on Netflix and it made me think. I thought of the fine line between what's real and what's not. [...]
A lot has changed for me recently. I've not been posting much because I've been in a mental space where I feel like everything I say just doesn't come out right, so it is best not to even bother. But, I miss the wordpress community, so I am going to try and summarize where things [...]
This is an old one and a long one but hopefully worth the read still: I would like to invite you on a journey, not across space, but across time, my time, the time I spent living in the body of a teenage beauty queen. This isn't science fiction; there won't be a time machine, [...]
This day, the day that would have been my anniversary, 4 years ago I wrote this: "I realized tonight that I really need to stop apologizing for just being myself. I am a messy, complicated, sensitive, super emotional, overanalyzing human. I'm imperfect. I can be difficult. But, I'm also incredibly loyal. I'm probably excessively generous. [...]
A wise woman said to me today, "if you want to touch others you must write from your scars, not your wounds." I realized that the writing I have done recently, on both my blog and my Facebook, has been wound writing. And I realize that writing from this place may have had the very [...]
