Where I Come From: A Rise from the Lower Class

Sometimes we have take a long hard look at where we came from to appreciate how far we have come, where we are and where we are going. Or, at least, that's what they say. So, as I am currently in life repair mode, I took a trip back home to remind myself of how [...]

Finding My Voice

"Why English? The other day during an interview I was asked, "Why English?". I gave the standard "I love reading. I'm good at research. I've always been pretty drawn to writing." Not lies. Not the truth. I had never really considered why I chose English before; it was just something I did, not a choice [...]

Friendship in the Tsunami of Sadness

Today the weather matches my mood. I am a tsunami of Sadness. I am, quite frankly suicidal in the has a plan and could act on it kind of way. Today I contemplated suicide in a way more serious than I have in ages. Had it not been for the consistent company of my best [...]

Today: A Gun in Our School

Today a kid brought a BB gun to the school where I teach. Fortunately, it wasn't a "real" gun and fortunately he was caught, though I'm sure he didn't intend to do any damage. I think it was for the accolades, though it concerns me that this would be an action taken to receive accolades. [...]

I am not a single story

I am not every negative thing that has happened to me or been said about me. I am a patchwork girl. I am pieced together from fragments of memories, experiences, and stories. I have been created by all the people I’ve ever loved or hated. And all the people who have loved and hated me. In [...]

The Demons Inside Us

A fellow blogger recently drew her "monster" as a part of her therapy homework (I believe) and it inspired me to do a bit of my own drawing (as I've felt like something has been off all day, just unsettled). I grew up in a ridiculously religious household and was always told demons were the [...]

A Lifetime of Running from My Own Presence

Therapy is a lot like school: there is homework. But, it's life homework. Presumably the kind of thing that makes us better versions of who we already are. I don't know. I haven't decided if there is truth to that but I'm doing the homework anyway. Because I've always been a tenacious student and I'll [...]