Hiking Therapy

Recently, walk and talk therapy has become a thing. In the wake of K leaving (she and I have our last appt. June 20th), I've considered whether or not I want to stick with EMDR. And, I've considered things like walk and talk therapy because I love the idea of bringing the progress outdoors, where [...]

Gratitude and The Sh*t I Don’t Want to Say

This post serves two purposes: I want to celebrate the incredible gifts I've received in therapy but I also want to explore my story, the shit I don't want to say. I've been down lately, in one of the valleys of my recovery. I've built this incredible foundation in my team of mental health professionals [...]

Consent is Cool

Trigger Warning: Talk of Consent and Sexual Assault Last Friday was a hard day for me; I went to therapy and we processed some of my history with being sexually assaulted. Then I came home and watched the most recent Grey's Anatomy Episode. As fate would have it, the episode was all about rape and [...]

Highly Sensitive People

Hi loves, A new development since my last posts. I've decided to change my degree plan to Clinical Psych with LPC track, instead of doing CMHC. This makes more sense for me long term and would mean I'm out from under the preconceived notions carried by the CMHC staff. The Psych staff have had no [...]

My Landlord Lacks Human Decency

Today I took a spill down the steps in my apartment building (it is a little fourplex with two stairwells). The back staircase was wood but the landlord painted over the wood with a glossy brown paint that very easily becomes slick. Couple this with steepness of the steps and the small width and, well, [...]

My Truth: Living w/Passive SI

Today was a big day for me. It may not be considered a big day for most people but for me, for someone who has struggled for decades with passive suicidal ideation, it is a big deal what I accomplished in these last few minutes. See this line of pills bottles: I've been holding onto [...]

EMDR today

I haven't been sharing much about my therapy journey anymore because, well, it has mostly been about putting out the fires in my present life. But, today I got to process some past stuff with EMDR. I've been in therapy for several months now and we have used EMDR to process some present traumas but [...]