Listen to Truth

I have this corner on the old school blackboard in my classroom that has refrigerator magnets with words. The corner is simple. It says, "create." When the kids are bored they tend to go to the board and just randomly make poems or art with the words. The internet went down yesterday, so one student [...]

A Look into my 3rd Therapy Session

As you know by now, I started therapy with a new therapist (a clinical psychologist) recently. There isn't that intense draw to her that I felt with C but she does know how to ask the right questions and I do feel less like I am at risk of being judged by her, so these [...]

The Vanishing Girl

When I was a little girl, I used to practice beingĀ invisible. If I was invisible then I couldn't be yelled at, devalued, or hurt. At least that is what my childhood mind told me. Now, I know that doesn't make any sense, I am not, nor have I ever been, a vanishing girl. I was [...]

Poem: Scars

Trigger warning: Self harm This was written to be spoken word poetry put to music and such; maybe some day I'll do that but for now, here it is in its plain ole typed form. Scars   I am not my scars Or any of the things that have happened to me. I'm not the [...]

Where I Come From: A Rise from the Lower Class

Sometimes we have take a long hard look at where we came from to appreciate how far we have come, where we are and where we are going. Or, at least, that's what they say. So, as I am currently in life repair mode, I took a trip back home to remind myself of how [...]

A Lifetime of Running from My Own Presence

Therapy is a lot like school: there is homework. But, it's life homework. Presumably the kind of thing that makes us better versions of who we already are. I don't know. I haven't decided if there is truth to that but I'm doing the homework anyway. Because I've always been a tenacious student and I'll [...]

Wilting in the Shadow of God

With my grandfather's death and funeral I was reminded of the kind of Christianity my family practices. It isn't the kind that believes in grace as acceptance of all those who are not worthy. It isn't the kind that believes in mercy or forgiveness for every sinner. It is not the kind that believes in [...]