Missing a Therapist

I think there are probably quite a lot of people out there who are wondering: why do I miss my therapist so much between sessions? Or, maybe, like me, their therapist has moved states, referred out, or some other variation of ending the relationship; and, they find themselves feeling a deep sense of grief they [...]

I’m Human and I’m not Sorry

After my first year in the Clinical Mental Health Counseling graduate program at UT Tyler, I recieved this as my annual review results: I met expectations and exceeded expectations on every category. This year, the faculty decided that I did not meet expectations in almost all areas. These are the results I recieved today: If [...]

Hiking Therapy

Recently, walk and talk therapy has become a thing. In the wake of K leaving (she and I have our last appt. June 20th), I've considered whether or not I want to stick with EMDR. And, I've considered things like walk and talk therapy because I love the idea of bringing the progress outdoors, where [...]

Gratitude and The Sh*t I Don’t Want to Say

This post serves two purposes: I want to celebrate the incredible gifts I've received in therapy but I also want to explore my story, the shit I don't want to say. I've been down lately, in one of the valleys of my recovery. I've built this incredible foundation in my team of mental health professionals [...]

Asking for what we need

I had therapy with K yesterday. I was going to tell her that it had to be our last session, that I couldn't afford anymore. But then, she just said and did all the right things. I couldn't walk away. So, we set an appointment for 3 weeks from now, when I should have money [...]

A lot of change…

Again, it has been a while since I've written. I think the last I checked in, it was on the J thing (me trying to persuade her to have me for individual). Her first response was via phone, so I couldn't share that. But, after some deep soul searching I realized what I needed from [...]

Broken Heart

Well, J called me yesterday at 1:30PM and told me that she didn't think it was ethical to agree to be my individual therapist. I expected that to be the answer but I had hope that she would be different. My heart is broken. She is just another person, in a string of people, who [...]

New Developments in Group

So, I went to group last night, even though I've literally been sick about this whole thing. I'm glad I went though because things have taken an interesting turn. We all walk in and take our seats. Both J and L are there. First thing, L tells us that due to the concerns raised about [...]

Group Therapy: A Shit Show

This post serves no purpose other than to vent about the group therapy transition I experienced today. Lol so if you're not in for some quality crying via words, look away. Group tonight was a shit show. We had the new girl, L, for the first time. I emailed her beforehand to ask why she [...]

Progression in EMDR therapy

Hello loves, It's been a while since I've mentioned anything about my progress in EMDR therapy, as I've mostly just been building the relationship with this new therapist. I was definitely skeptical of her for a while. But, she is starting to grow on me. I've still asked J (my group therapist, who is leaving [...]