Crying Yogi(ni)

I cried today during morning yoga practice. I've been told this is something that happens but in a year and a half I've never experienced the rush of emotions people have told me about. I wondered if I was defective, to be quite honest. I wondered if I was really that shut off to my [...]

Therapy Homework: “Love Letters” Technique

I am not going to lie, I was going to adamantly not do this weeks therapy homework. When Dr. W gave me the paper that says, "The purpose of this love letter is to express and resolve all the negative feelings that prevent you from experiencing and sharing the love you feel deep inside", I thought, "this [...]

Why it is okay to express emotions

Preface: This day 3 years ago I wrote the following on my facebook feed: "All the best characters in the best books cause us (or help us) to feel things we'd otherwise be too afraid to feel, the things left unexpressed without the intervention of literary provocation, without the safe space between words on pages. [...]

A Look into my 3rd Therapy Session

As you know by now, I started therapy with a new therapist (a clinical psychologist) recently. There isn't that intense draw to her that I felt with C but she does know how to ask the right questions and I do feel less like I am at risk of being judged by her, so these [...]

Words of wisdom from my past self…

This day several years ago I posted two things that still resonate with me, that I hope might resonate with all of you as well. The first: It isn't what you say or do that cuts the deepest, it is what you fail to say and choose not to do. That negative space where something (an [...]

Catching Feelings

There is something my kids often say that, as a word person and a person who cares about people, really makes my wheels turn for a number of reasons. They say, "I can't catch feelings anymore" or "I don't want to catch feelings anymore." This phraseology makes me wonder at what point in language this [...]

Mara: Marred by Delusions, Finding Inner Peace

Those of us who have been in therapy probably all know very well the phrases, "you must be able to sit with the emotions." Or, "there is only going through the emotions." Or some variation on the same theme. The idea that we have to stop avoiding our emotions, stop dissociating from them if there [...]

Uninhibited Emotional Vulnerability

I wrote this on this day 4 years ago: "I sometimes wonder if having moments of uninhibited emotional vulnerability (or just complete raw honesty) with/at/towards people is a mistake, if people don't know what to do with that kind of openness or just don't actually want that much honesty. If those are things best left [...]

Sanctuary from a Dim World

Sometimes even the brightest lights don't shine quite as brightly as they usually do. Even the sun is obscured today, making for a world that is literally and figuratively dim. The fog has been acting as a thick blanket this week, effectively erasing tall buildings, cars, people. It's a strange experience of the world. My [...]