Self-Compassion Letter

My TS therapist has been trying to get me to write a self-compassion letter for ages. I haven't done it because I'm stubborn and it seemed difficult. After a few tough weeks of no therapy and then a few tough weeks of therapy, she brought the letter up again. This time I figured I would [...]

Life is still happening

I feel like I've been doing an awful job of keeping up with my blog lately. A lot has happened in my life. K and I had our last session. So heartbreaking. I had my first session with J, since K left. It was decent, nothing to phone home about. I'm just hoping the connection [...]

My Truth: Living w/Passive SI

Today was a big day for me. It may not be considered a big day for most people but for me, for someone who has struggled for decades with passive suicidal ideation, it is a big deal what I accomplished in these last few minutes. See this line of pills bottles: I've been holding onto [...]

EMDR today

I haven't been sharing much about my therapy journey anymore because, well, it has mostly been about putting out the fires in my present life. But, today I got to process some past stuff with EMDR. I've been in therapy for several months now and we have used EMDR to process some present traumas but [...]

Students Surviving Stigma

Hi all, I know it has been a while since I've posted again. I've just been riding things out. When I got the committee notice I was devastated. I felt certain I was going to get kicked out, this near to the end. But, I proposed a solution: I step back from practicum, don't see [...]

Experiences of Synchronicity

Wednesday, my therapy day, was quite unusual. There isn't any way my words will do justice to the events of the day but I'm still going to try. The best way I can describe the day is through the notion of Synchronicity. This is basically Carl Jung's fancy explanation for those strange coincidences that feel [...]

It’s My Birthday

Today is my 30th birthday. The first people to tell me "Happy Birthday" were my therapist, who sent me a message, and the car dealership where I bought my car a year ago, who have an automated system that send messages for them. This is how 30 starts out. Lol I know, I know. I'm [...]