Question of the Day

Inspiration can come from strange places. This question of the day is brought to you by Brazilian drama inspired musings. Sometimes when we are raised in settings that are clinically defined as "less than nurturing" or "not good enough" (depending on whose language you choose) we learn ways of coping which, in the moment, are [...]

Self-Compassion Letter

My TS therapist has been trying to get me to write a self-compassion letter for ages. I haven't done it because I'm stubborn and it seemed difficult. After a few tough weeks of no therapy and then a few tough weeks of therapy, she brought the letter up again. This time I figured I would [...]

Life is still happening

I feel like I've been doing an awful job of keeping up with my blog lately. A lot has happened in my life. K and I had our last session. So heartbreaking. I had my first session with J, since K left. It was decent, nothing to phone home about. I'm just hoping the connection [...]

My Truth: Living w/Passive SI

Today was a big day for me. It may not be considered a big day for most people but for me, for someone who has struggled for decades with passive suicidal ideation, it is a big deal what I accomplished in these last few minutes. See this line of pills bottles: I've been holding onto [...]

EMDR today

I haven't been sharing much about my therapy journey anymore because, well, it has mostly been about putting out the fires in my present life. But, today I got to process some past stuff with EMDR. I've been in therapy for several months now and we have used EMDR to process some present traumas but [...]

Experiences of Synchronicity

Wednesday, my therapy day, was quite unusual. There isn't any way my words will do justice to the events of the day but I'm still going to try. The best way I can describe the day is through the notion of Synchronicity. This is basically Carl Jung's fancy explanation for those strange coincidences that feel [...]

It’s My Birthday

Today is my 30th birthday. The first people to tell me "Happy Birthday" were my therapist, who sent me a message, and the car dealership where I bought my car a year ago, who have an automated system that send messages for them. This is how 30 starts out. Lol I know, I know. I'm [...]

Almost 30

My birthday is in 2 days. I will be 30. I keep looking back on my 20s and wondering if maybe I've had my priorities wrong this whole time. I've accomplished a lot, technically, but what do those things even matter? I've been married. But I got divorced. I've loved and been loved. But all [...]

Holding Space and The Perfect Weekend

This weekend was the weekend of my yogi retreat for my yoga teacher training. In this post I want to share some of the amazing experiences and lessons that were gifted to me over the last few days. I learned that when we share our stories with one another everything else slips away, becomes white [...]