Life is still happening

I feel like I've been doing an awful job of keeping up with my blog lately. A lot has happened in my life. K and I had our last session. So heartbreaking. I had my first session with J, since K left. It was decent, nothing to phone home about. I'm just hoping the connection [...]

I’m Human and I’m not Sorry

After my first year in the Clinical Mental Health Counseling graduate program at UT Tyler, I recieved this as my annual review results: I met expectations and exceeded expectations on every category. This year, the faculty decided that I did not meet expectations in almost all areas. These are the results I recieved today: If [...]

Hiking Therapy

Recently, walk and talk therapy has become a thing. In the wake of K leaving (she and I have our last appt. June 20th), I've considered whether or not I want to stick with EMDR. And, I've considered things like walk and talk therapy because I love the idea of bringing the progress outdoors, where [...]

Sorry for Disappearing

I do that sometimes, disappear. Sorry. But, I'm here now. I haven't felt like I had anything of any interest to post. I figure I can't just keep staying in the dark though, so I will fill everyone in on what has been happening in my life anyway. School I start my practicum this semester. [...]

This isn’t where I thought I’d be

As I approach almost 30 years of life and I take inventory of where I have been and where I am, I realize, I am no where I thought I'd be. I never thought at 29 I would be waking up at 7:30am to break-up texts because I wasn't ready to be more physically affection. [...]

Shine your Light

Have you ever just watched as rain-filled clouds roll over you, casting shadows on the earth beneath your feet? Clouds that are so bloated with water that they can't contain what's in them; they shed little droplets of rain as they travel (portents of an impending cleansing). Yet, somehow, light gets through or around, just [...]

More Wisdom from my Younger Self

When I turned in my letter of resignation and my keys this week, I gave up stability in pursuit of living a more authentic life. Initially this was exhilarating. However, today I am feeling an unreal amount of anxiety about the fact that I quit my salaried job with benefits in pursuit of working a [...]

Patience is Difficult on the Long Journeys

Have you ever beat yourself up for not being further along than you thought you should be? Or, maybe you did get there but then you took 2 steps backward? Maybe you lost 12 pounds but then you gained 5 back. Maybe you managed not to cut for 2 months but then you slipped up [...]

Let me Grow to Maturity in Missouri

This morning I sat curled up in the fetal position, in an old wooden chair, in an unfamiliar place, having Thai tea instead of my normal morning coffee/protein shake. In the midst of all this unknown, I was awed by the beauty all around me. I thought for a second, maybe this is what growth [...]