Ghosts

Do you believe in ghosts? Yes, I mean the kind that go bump in the night. The specters caught between real and not real, past and present, energy diverted. I just watched Haunting of Hill House on Netflix and it made me think. I thought of the fine line between what's real and what's not. [...]

Broken Heart

Well, J called me yesterday at 1:30PM and told me that she didn't think it was ethical to agree to be my individual therapist. I expected that to be the answer but I had hope that she would be different. My heart is broken. She is just another person, in a string of people, who [...]

Medication Update and Most Recent EMDR Session

So, you know how I've been pretty stable lately? I think that has been, in part, due to finding the right combination of medications. I talked to my insurance today (the new insurance since my last plan ran out) and there is a pretty good chance my Latuda won't even get covered because it isn't [...]

What is Normal?

Yesterday in my Advanced Psychopathology class we revisited the idea of normalcy and abnormality in relation to mental health. The professor showed us this slide: And he assured us that all of us were "normal" because the department had viewed our applications to the program and we all got in, so nothing sent up any [...]

Group update

Just a short post to update those who are following the Wednesday night S.S. saga. I received a message from J this morning in response to my request to talk to her but not to talk any further with L. She said she "respects how hard this transition is for [me] and others" and that [...]

The more I keep thinking…

I stayed pretty busy today doing homework but unfortunately all of my homework had to do with the ethics of counseling, so it didn't help keep my mind off Wednesday. I know I am ruminating, and yet, here I am. It is problematic, I know, but it has led me to a new realization. Much [...]

I’m a yoga teacher

The day finally came! I graduated from yoga teacher training yesterday! 200 hours of practice, observation, learning, and growing. What an amazing early birthday present to myself. I never would have thought a year and a half ago when I went to my first yoga class that the next summer I would be getting certified [...]

An Update (because I can’t sleep)

Hello loves, It is currently 4:11 am where I am located. And, I can't sleep. So, I figured I would give everyone an update. I know I have been pretty quiet lately. I've just been trying to recharge after my summer semester. School: I will start with school since it is fresh on my mind. [...]

Finding an EMDR Therapist, Part 2

I heeded the wise words of you, my fellow bloggers, and went ahead and made an appointment with another EMDR therapist. I just really did not have a good gut feeling about the second one. I don't think I could count on her to help me contain anything that would become overwhelming, should it become [...]

Finding an EMDR Therapist

So, I mentioned in an earlier blog that I was going to look into EMDR. I had already seen one therapist and after intake she insisted that I do comprehensive DBT because there is 24/7 access to the therapists. I do not, however, want 24/7 access to anyone. I value my autonomy and independence. I'm [...]