Connection Between Body Weight and Health

This whole smaller body equates better health thing that society perpetuates is interesting to me. As someone who gained 70 pounds, then lost 60 pounds, then gained 10 of those back, I feel like I've gained some perspective on this whole social construct. In the photo I chose for this post, I am at my [...]

Boredom and perseverance

I've received some valuable lessons in perseverance lately. Sometimes when I'm in the eye of a an emotional storm it's difficult to see the way out and I have a tendency to want to sit down and give up. But when it comes to doing random things, I seem immune to that lack of drive. [...]

There is no “suddenly” about positive change

Change is bloody hard. Sometimes it feels downright impossible. This is especially true for positive, lasting change. I've been thinking a lot about this since quitting therapy with C. I keep asking myself, "did I bail for the right reasons?" Because I dedicated myself to the therapy process. I told myself I was going to [...]

Friendship in the Tsunami of Sadness

Today the weather matches my mood. I am a tsunami of Sadness. I am, quite frankly suicidal in the has a plan and could act on it kind of way. Today I contemplated suicide in a way more serious than I have in ages. Had it not been for the consistent company of my best [...]