Gratitude and The Sh*t I Don’t Want to Say

This post serves two purposes: I want to celebrate the incredible gifts I've received in therapy but I also want to explore my story, the shit I don't want to say. I've been down lately, in one of the valleys of my recovery. I've built this incredible foundation in my team of mental health professionals [...]

Back to Mental Health Routine

Yesterday I had ALL the mental health appointments. It was so much mental health focus. I had a video session with my group therapist to process some relational stuff there because I've found myself crossing boundaries with her, in a way that doesn't feel authentic to who I believe myself to be. So, we discussed [...]

An Ambien Stupor

Oh my goodness! Last night I took two ambien, instead of my usual one, because my brain wasn't cooperating. Let me tell you all about the things I have since discovered doing while in my stupor: 1) I ate all the cookies in the apartment 2) I ate half a bag of chips 3) I [...]

My Mental Health Team

I think I've finally found the right combination of professionals. I saw my psychiatrist today and she was patient as I refused to produce a urine sample (after the $3220 debacle). And she was patient as I refused to give blood because I just didn't see the point (hello, depression). She was disappointed but gave [...]

Brain Zaps

Since it is Mental Health Awareness Month and since I recently had an experience with brain zaps, I am going to write a blog about this phenomenon. Hopefully raising awareness. My aim is to save someone from the experience of being completely freaked out when this happens to them. Yesterday, I spoke with my psychiatrist [...]

Maybe there is hope…

Just a general update, nothing wise here. I had another session with Dr. W yesterday. As well as an appointment with a different psych. Needless to say, yesterday was emotionally draining. The psych was less gentle than my usual psych. So, when she said things that implied I wasn't trying enough because I broke down [...]