I’m Human and I’m not Sorry

After my first year in the Clinical Mental Health Counseling graduate program at UT Tyler, I recieved this as my annual review results: I met expectations and exceeded expectations on every category. This year, the faculty decided that I did not meet expectations in almost all areas. These are the results I recieved today: If [...]

Musings from Teacherland

Yesterday all the teachers at my school were called into a meeting. One of our students was found dead in his car, a few cities away. Police don't suspect foul play which leaves us to speculate that it is either a freak accident, natural causes, or suicide. We were told only to tell students the [...]

Loving Kindness and all that Jazz

Apparently on this day for the last several years I've been incredibly mindful and reflective. I shared this on my Facebook 3 years ago: I still believe in that world, the one held together by love. Even as I see the world around me becoming a darker place, I keep believing in the power of [...]

An open letter to my depression

I am having my students write open letters as a part of their end of year memoir projects, so since I'm doing the project with them I decided to write an open letter to depression. An open letter to my depression: To my depression, I would say, "Dear Depression" but then you haven't been a [...]

10 Reasons Why…

Okay, I'm about to brag on my "kids." I call them kids but really they are all 17 to 19 so in the eyes of our state, adults. However, in the eyes of me, their adoring teacher, they're still kids with sweet, loyal, loving hearts. So, without further adieu... 10 Reasons Why my Kids Make [...]

Meandering Down the Path of Wonder

Do you ever wonder what your life would have been like if a certain thing never happened or you had never met a certain person or if you were somewhere else at a specific time? I think this is natural right? To wonder about how things could have been different. But, for some of us we [...]

Today: A Gun in Our School

Today a kid brought a BB gun to the school where I teach. Fortunately, it wasn't a "real" gun and fortunately he was caught, though I'm sure he didn't intend to do any damage. I think it was for the accolades, though it concerns me that this would be an action taken to receive accolades. [...]

I am not a single story

I am not every negative thing that has happened to me or been said about me. I am a patchwork girl. I am pieced together from fragments of memories, experiences, and stories. I have been created by all the people I’ve ever loved or hated. And all the people who have loved and hated me. In [...]

A Teacher’s Perspective on Mass Shootings in American Schools

If you've read my very first blog post then you know I'm a teacher. You also might know that I'm someone with a deep well of emotion. I am quite gifted at numbing those emotions, usually. But when it comes to things like mass shootings in schools, I come undone. I feel pain that is [...]

Putting Humanity Back in the Classroom

Teachers are humans. We are real flesh and blood people, made up of thoughts, feelings, memories, and all of the complexity that entails. And, guess what? So are our students. When my students come to me at the beginning of the year, they do not come as blank slates. A freshly packaged canvas awaiting the [...]